Ŧŕ@ŝħĶ@ŧŦ;;one man's trash is a gutterneko's heave

2009-09-15T13:53:00.000-07:00

Quitting SL for a while...
And me and Shane are over.
FYI

Blah...

2009-08-03T17:50:00.001-07:00

Just a lot of RL BS.
I may be back later tonight...

Wow...I don't even know where to begin...

2009-07-31T12:44:00.000-07:00

When I last blogged I was talking about shane and I planning our wedding...
Well it happened....
It was the most informal horrible terrifying ABSOLUTELY PERFECT day of my life, and never will I forget it.
I was stressed beyond reason all day but it was so perfect that I soon forgot about it.
Between reminding people about our time change, making sure my computer wasn't going to crash, praying Shane wasn't late to his own wedding, and checking that I have a freaking bridesmaid to walk down the isle with Jesse....not to mention Vic...dear sweet Vic, sitting front row and being as informal as he could be...I thought I would die.
But as soon as Zane appeared in that red and black dress that happened to perfectly match my maid of honor <3 I knew everything would be okay. It was beautiful...it really was...I walked down the isle with my little Griffin, who looked dreadfully handsome and was standing much taller than me.Vic cheered as I made my way past him...And then I met my dear Shane at the altar. The minister threw in poems and quotes that fit Shane and I so well.
And when Shane and I kissed....as a married couple...
Dear Vic cheered and wooohed. Along with Madeline and Jesse and Raiven and Zane and Fluffy. <33333
We then made our way down to the reception tent, Shane and I goofing off as a married couple. <3 Of course being as SL food isn't as edible our guests didn't RUSH after us. But soon they were all around us and we were cutting the cake. Many people were forced to leave early but they wished us congratulations and good luck. :D Those who remained were able to hear a poem I wrote for shane and...see us shove cake down each other's throats. Soon everyone but Fluffy, Zane, Griffin, Shane and I reminded thus we proceeded to take pictures on my pose balls. :D and then Mikal popped up for a final picture.
After that Shane put up our castle and Zipy and Skelly came over. Shane and I explored our castle while those three remained outside and it was simply the most beautiful day of my life.

Shane, my dead boy, my cadaver, my prince, my love...
It's been four months, real and second life.
When we first got together I didn't think we'd last a week and yet..
Here we are...
I can't imagine the people you know, the places you go...
What are your hopes...
Plans...
Dreams...

Dreams...You are my dreams...
I have all these dreams that we'll leave this place...
That I could take you there...
And I remember you came walking out the house...
Spinning in the rain...
colors littering the sky...
And I remember you came over to me...
Cuddled up so close...
And we talked about this day...
And here we are...
I mean...
I love you, so much...
I really do...
Forever and always..

No matter what...
And I want to spend the rest of my life with you..
It's lying in your arms...
and watching the stars...
Ten, twenty, thirty years from now...
Remember all the things I did to you...
All the hell I put you through...
You put up with all my nightmares and doubts and fear and moods.

It's not hard to dream you'll always be there...
What I'm trying to say is...
I love you.

Pictures all taken by the wonderful Griffin Mornington...
If you'd like to see more go here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/40952463@N07/sets/72157621764369583

Today I realized how much I adore my boy...

2009-06-24T21:02:00.001-07:00

And as I laid in bed alone...
I realized the mistake I made turning him down the first time he proposed...
I'm glad we're talking about planning a wedding now...

I've got my dress picked out. :>

Real life rants....

2009-06-11T21:42:00.001-07:00

Some days I'm a saint in my head...looking down on everyone and then other days I'm a self destructive gutter child wanting to be on whatever it is the druggie kids are on that day.. . Not that I take it but sometimes I still want it.I get in these dreadful self destructive moods where I want to do everything possible to hurt myself...
I don't smoke but when I break down I crave cigarettes. Not just cigarettes but cloves. Djarum blacks... so specific. When I want to die I crave drugs...something hard to leave me messed up in the street covered in grime. It's terrible I know but I'm terrible and I'm scum because I want it. Just stop wanting it. There are other ways to feel better instead of beating yourself up. How do you stop wanting something you never wanted to want in the first place? How do you sop wanting something you never tried to start with? I'm not worth much. I'm terrible I'm grime and I'm scum. I want to tear myself down and be a street rat sometimes... a swine whore... I'm not worth much and compared to me even you are worth the world.
Which is sad because you're just a parasite trying to leech off of me. What do you want today? Money? Sex?
Find another whore to get it from, I'm grime but you're lower than me and you're not worth my time..

I am nothing but a lost gutter child trying to protect my mechanical heart...
I've given it to my swine whore wind up boy and he is my valenswine...

TONIGHT...WE DANCE IN HELL....

2009-06-10T18:13:00.000-07:00

Jesse has finally gotten his adventure...
He brought me down to Hell...
Where I ruled and had him fulfill my every dream. lol
I dunno...
We explored and it was lovely...
Except when I almost got blasted by a meteor or something. lol
We'll have to do it again.

"Goodnight sweet Prince..."

2009-06-08T13:29:00.000-07:00

"May flights of the devil swing you to your rest."

I have a new home.
And no it has nothing to do with my quotes...
No I was simply watching Interview with the Vampire.
When I can get blogspot working I'll upload my Vamp pictures from today.

Wanna know what sucks?

2009-06-08T02:42:00.000-07:00

What REEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAALLY sucks?
Being homeless.
So since Jesse, Mikal and I cannot agree on anything house wise...
Mikal and I moved out...
I was heartbroken taking down my Griffi's beautiful greenhouse set up...
I promise once I get land of my own...
That will be the first thing to go up...
Before a house even...
Will be his greenhouse set up...
Ohh he'll be so sad when he gets on and it isn't there...
And I'm not there...

Woe is me.
T-T;
At least my family is strong.

ALSO...

2009-05-31T03:24:00.001-07:00

The Griffi is amazing...
He is my hero...
And totally deserves caps lock.

IDK what I would do without him...
I mean...He makes me into SNOW WHITE!
lol
Life's a storybook with Princess Griffi...

I took a trip down the rabbit hole today

2009-05-31T02:25:00.000-07:00

And it was magnificent.
Working with Griffin again.
I do so love that boy.
And must pay him with lots of hugs and kisses.
I really must.

But yes...
Working on my portfolio...
And spending time with my Griffi.
I went loli today.
And it WAS AMAZING.

Lovable Sparrow? A Model?

2009-05-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

I’m trying to get with Nocturne Modelling, like one of the best alternative SL modelling agency I’ve ever seen…

For the past week I’ve been working on taking pictures to put in a portfolio…but only when I found Nocturne did I taking it seriously…Getting my dear Princess Griffin Mornington to help me out…[[amazing boy I swear...]]
This neko’s gonna strut her stuff. :>

Hopefully. :<

PLEASE PLEASE LET ME GET IN….

/me goes to work on her portfolio

I am Sparrow, Hear me Roarr

2009-05-30T00:37:00.000-07:00

Hi, I’m Sparrow Haiku…

orr….

Tr@shKatt…

I’m a Secondlife Neko deciding to get out into the world and let everyone know who the fuck I am…

After all, how else is a poor gutterneko like me supposed to survive?

Well…Friend me…

I don’t bite…

I take that back…

I bite…HARD.